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Truth in Fiction and Memoir - Ann Rawson

Updated: Nov 28, 2019


Ann Rawson, author of 'Too Much Tea'

“I once heard Don DeLillo quip that a fiction writer starts with meaning and then manufactures events to represent it; a memoirist starts with events, then derives meaning from them.” Mary Karr, in The Art of Memoir.


I always thought of myself as a fiction writer. I've written a couple of novels and a few short stories. Then, at the beginning of this year I started to work on a memoir.


Readers want to know if my novel – a psychological thriller - is based on my own experience. Oddly, they mean the sex, not the murders. With the memoir, they ask: “Surely that didn't happen?" They're not explicitly doubting me, so much as seeking more detail, more reality.


I was taken aback at first, but the more I've thought about it, the more I like it, especially in this world of alt-facts we live in, this playground for liars.


Fiction can tell some kinds of truth more convincingly. Stories can be entertaining and satisfying – they can make a point without lecturing. I certainly couldn't write a hundred thousand words unless I had something to say, and I pick and choose bits of reality to lend authenticity to the products of my imagination. I can exaggerate or turn reality upside down and inside out, without feeling the slightest guilt.


When I'm writing memoir, it's because I want to create an authentic record of something which happened – usually about a person or event that affected me deeply.


‘Too Much Tea’, my story for the Stories About Penises anthology, is about one of those moments.


When a friend tagged me on Facebook, and jokingly suggested that she knew I would have a story about a penis, she was right.


It happened so long ago that the people I wrote about are long gone. This is a story that only I can tell.


I saw how easily a small abuse of power – that of a landlady over a tenant – could ride roughshod over a person's life. I knew it was wrong, but at twenty-two, I lacked the courage to stand up for Mr Hatchard, and anyway, I needed the money.


I have stayed true to what I remember. The dialogue is imagined – but nothing is twisted or exaggerated. I've not filled in the gaps in my knowledge with guesswork.


Still, ‘Too Much Tea’ does read like fiction. It has the form of a story – I've chosen the beginning and the ending. The scenes I selected tell a particular story, in a particular way. It's not just a meander through my memories of that time.


Both fiction and memoir are shaped by a single vision. They are both, however imperfectly, concerned with things that matter to the writer, and that the writer hopes will matter to other people.


Yet there is a world of difference to this writer. With fiction my only responsibility is to myself and my own truth. With memoir I have a responsibility to other people as well, and to tell my story without distorting theirs.


Truth is a slippery concept at best, but we can still make our goal never to make up events out of whole cloth, or deliberately deceive. If I condense time, simplify a story, perhaps alter names and locations – that is about courtesy to the people I am writing about, and to the readers. It's not an escape from honesty and authenticity.


I wrote ‘Too Much Tea’ for Mr Hatchard. However late, it's a kind of apology, and an acknowledgement of a difficult lesson I learned at his expense. When writing memoir we're often writing for people who are never going to read it, but we write anyway – partly for ourselves and partly in the hope that our experience will have some meaning for others.



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'Too Much Tea' will be published in our Stories About Penises anthology, release date 28 November 2019. Orders are now available.


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